Here I Am

so i'm cruising along okay, mindless of the myriad worries of the world, cocooned in the comfort of knowledge, of knowing that nothing drastic can happen to me, not now while i'm cruising along so peacefully. i use the word cruise, not because i'm on an open deck of a 100-foot yacht, nor because i'm driving a Harley-Davidson, though i'd love to do both. i use 'cruise' coz the word immediately brings to my mind the StarWars like desert scooters, or the scene in The Incredibles where Dash propels Elastigirl's boat. you know, the dream of every boy stuck in a rut somewhere in the world's corner: to leave everything behind and 'feel the elements', like the wind in your hair, or sun shining on your face, or the cool touch of water while canoeing down rapids, you get my drift... cruising along is something i've always wanted to do, to take time out from this fast-paced world and get to know myself a little better. it holds that touch of adventure, that li'l dash of romance, the unknown and the challenging, while still giving you the security of knowing that you always have a safety-belt to rely on. so i am in such a state, not on any vehicle per se, unless you call this material body a vehicle. so here i am, just drifting along with the currents of time, being jostled by the madding crowd, still somehow remaining calm and unperturbed, like in the cruise i've always wanted to be on.

and along came polly. polly is one thing i've always avoided, thought of confronting it, but like so many other events in my shallow li'l life, i've always adjourned it to a 'tomorrow' that never yet came. polly has the potential to destroy me completely, so much so that i even fear thinking about it. polly has the ability to lift me up to nirvana, and so even while i fear thinking about it, i gaze at it longingly. polly is the question: where am i headed?